So it's done. We sold our house this week and we close on Sept.1st. I can't say I'm happy about it, just very mixed feelings. We ended up losing a LOT of money on this deal, but with the market the way it is in this area right now, we have to be grateful for small mercies that we even managed to sell it! Almost every house that has sold in recent months, no matter what the value, the area it's in, the condition etc, has sold way below the assessed value, and I doubt if anyone has made money on their sales. Some may have at least come out even...but we didn't even do that! Our house sold for over $20,000 LESS than what we paid for it just four years ago! I can't think about it too much as it makes me sick to my stomach.
So this means that we won't have as much cash coming out of this as we had hoped. Yes the bank will be paid off, but there will be little left over to do the things we had planned on. It does mean though that we can now begin to look forward and get on with our lives, and hopefully this is the start of a new beginning........but being the pessimist that I am, my inner voice keeps nagging at me that it feels more like the "beginning of the end".......the end of what? The last chapter in our lives I guess. I had hoped for a better ending, so we will have to do our darndest to create a better ending! Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that I would end up living in Leamington for probably the rest of my life on earth. I don't know where I thought I was going to end up....I know where I feel I should be.......and it's not in Canada, or at least not in this part of Canada!
Some days I just can't stand myself. I bitch and complain way too much. It's not good for me, or for my husband. I don't know why he has put up with me for so many years. I try to look on the positive side, I really do, and I am grateful for what I have......but is it so bad to want more? I dwell on the past far too much, I wish I didn't. Maybe once we've moved I can try to live more for the present and the future. At least I am planning in my mind what I want to do with the house we're moving to. It's going to be a busy few weeks, and a busy few months to follow but maybe that's all part of God's plan.
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I'm sorry to hear that. :/ I do hope something else comes along to make it a better perspective. I think we're kind of alike on the pessimistic front, so it's hard for me to say, with conviction, "look up". But, you know...you never know. Right? That always helps me a little bit.
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